It's not getting any easier!

People say things get easier given time ... 

Life is  not getting ANY easier, and it is taking too long to heal this bloody ankle! 

I need to RUN! I need to run NOW!

Fed up with sitting around feeling sorry for myself I decided to have a little go on my bike. 

I have lost all my confidence.  

I was frightened to clip my feet into my pedals in case the action of unclipping tweaked my ankle, so cycled on the flat side of my pedals.  

I felt unsafe in traffic and unfit in general. 

I had so many negative thoughts going through my head I really didn't enjoy the experience. I was cold, tired and nervous and I thought "What the hell am I doing this for?".  It only took a few flakes of snow to persuade me to go home after a measly very slow 6 miles. 

This pathetic attempt of a ride can be seen here.

However, lets be positive -  at least my ankle or tendon isn't objecting!

After weeks of inactivity and comfort eating I need to get a grip!  

After 38 non-running days I only have 5 to survive before I can go for a little run! Whooooo Hooooo!

In those five days I am going to try and eat a healthy diet and regain some fitness by persevering on my bike, go swimming and for some fast walks.

Next week I was supposed to be cycling in the Eden Valley Epic Sportive but my Physio said it really wasn't a good idea at this stage in my recovery.  I begrudgingly cancelled my place and was pleasantly surprised and delighted to be given a full refund as I had cancelled due to unavoidable circumstances!  


There is still some people with a kind heart in the world!!

It's my third event I have had to cancel, I hope it is the last!